((((((((SS))))))))))) and (((((((((Sundog))))))))))))))

I went to the sangha Sunday night, mostly because someone I met called and asked to accompany me. He picked me up, making it easy to get there. For the first time ever, I was so restless that I had to get up from my cushion, leave the meditation room and walk the hallway. I couldn't manage a moment of mindfulness. We stayed for the talk/discussion, but I couldn't listen or speak. Usually, I'd be engaged, and then participate actively in discussion. I don't understand what is happening to me lately, why I'm so caught by self-critical thoughts, and fatigue. I'm thinking about you both and hoping that you're doing okay. SS, I feel for your struggles and am pleased for the moments when you transcend and create comfort for yourself. Sundog, I am SO happy that you're experiencing some peace and calm.