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Well done for going to the sangha on Sunday! (((((((lavie))))))) That's awesome. I'm sorry you felt so very restless. I know how disheartening it is when that happens in a situation where we have previously felt safe and at ease. I hope the anxiety at the sangha was an isolated incident (though I understand that you are experiencing a lot of emotional pain in general right now). I do think it's great that you went to the sangha. And I hope that you will keep on going, and that next time you will feel engaged again
(((((((ss))))))))) I loved hearing about your smudge ceremony and the drumming. I'm really happy it helped you release your worries. What a wonderful ritual

I really hope your rash gets better too.
Thanks so much to you guys for all your encouragement