Very funny Sun... you silly girl

(((lavie))))) It is so nice to hear from you again. I am sorry your journey to the sangha was not as restful as you had hoped. I pray you are able to trancend this too so you might find the calm and peaceful place you speak and your spirit craves for you to experience again.

I know you will overcome this temporary unrest. You have the knowledge and wisdom and heart to discover the gifts that you were given at the sangha underneath the restlessness you feel. To come to that place of understanding its purpose in your life and at this moment. This may not be the time for such contemplation but when the time is right you will receive the understanding.

Please be kind to yourself and do try to avoid the pressure to beat yourself up about anything. Nothing you do deserves anything but love and self kindness.

Perhaps something of my experiences can help you to find your own way to turn the tables on the emotions that can sometimes pull us away from feeling deserving of self love. We need to nothing to earn. We need only to step towards claiming it and professing it until it is planted so firmly in your heart that you return to it especially in those times of need.

Bless you my friend and may the fatique and uneasyness you are feeling be lifted so that you might once again sit peacefully in the quietnees of you own heart.

I am so grateful you came to let us know of your struggles so that we might lift you up in our meditations and prayers. You are a precious gift. We will always be here for you.