Thank you Jaded moonbeam,sundog,Gilead and danvb,I don't know what I'll do.I really have issues with women hurting men...even if my perspective is bad.The public humiliation of me divorcing him...him being monetarily faulted,and he doesn't even know he has done anything wrong.Despite me explaining everything...he has reasoning for everything.I just am going to create a separate reality in my head so I can handle my situation as it stands.I explain in my thread Dread,panic,or anxiety.But from this point,I have to flip a switch in my head.Or I am going to absolutely go insane.