Thanks everyone! I emailed my T twice last night, trying to process the session. I try to tell myself it's NOT about my T, but part of me, probably the child part who was there yesterday, feels incredibly close to her. I let her IN, and now I don't know how to cope with doing that. It stirs up all kinds of feelings, including the physical ones.

I can't let her be that close to me but at the same time I crave it. I intellectually know it's about the past, but I was right there with my T and she saw me. I felt DRIVEN to tell her I wanted a present from her. I felt DRIVEN to have her make the card with me. It was HER idea though I feel like I was in a dream world by then. I felt DRIVEN to scribble all over the paper and tear it up. I don't know how to handle these strong feelings. I keep going over what happened and thinking about how my T acted/reacted. I love her.