every day is the same! i brand myself crazy, but why? My anger,furstration, an sadness is unbarable,when i cry i scream, an turn blood red, when iam mad i pull at my hair an it rips. Meds dont help neither does therepy,but yet everything i say makes sence, iam consiciously aware of what i feel, but yet maybe iam, cause mutalation is addicting,an i rely on nemphetamines to wake me up, my future is dust, but wheres my god?