I have been in therapy for a little over a year. I started out bringing my son there because he has ADHD and I felt he was headed in the wrong direction with friends, etc... After about the 4th or 5th meeting, the T and I were talking after my son went outside and told me that he thought I looked sad and opened up the door for me to have therapy too. For the first 6 months or so my son and I split the sessions because medicaid was paying for it and the T said that by me getting the therapy my son is also benefitting from it and that is why it did not bother him to let medicaid pay for it. My son always went too, but I just spent the time he didn't spend within the hour. Then, after about a total of 9m months or so, my son started spending more and more time and there wasn't really time for me. So, by then I was in the middle of a lot of "stuff" and really needed to continue the therapy, so I started paying for sessions whenever I was able, which was usually once or sometimes twice a month. Now, I am really not able to pay anymore, but I am still kind of in the middle of therapy and not sure what to do.
I am also having strong transference issues, not romanically, but, basically I live in a fantasy world where he is with me all the time and we talk and just kind of act like good friends or family. It is very disheartening because I feel so emotionally attatched to him.