Did you ask your T if he could give you a lower rate or are you saying you can't pay at all? I'm sorry; that's a hard situation to be in. Will your son be finished with therapy any time soon or are you saying medicaid is only for him?

About the transference. Yeah, I understand those feelings. It does sound like you're in the middle of therapy and need to talk it over with him. Can your son skip a few sessions so you can go, at least to discuss how you're going to manage if you have to stop completely? It sounds like a really difficult position for you to be in and I wish I had a better solution for you.