Thank you! I'll find a good one soon, I'm sure.

I remember with my first real boyfriend (17), I was INFATUATED with him. If we had a good date, I would go home and write in my diary about it and just savor it... everything he said.. every thing we did... the moon, the stars.. (yada yada).. Like for days and days, things would remind me of a good date. What you're describing sounds a lot like that, rainbow.

When I go on a good date with my current boyfriend, I don't feel the same "limerance." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limerence I still care for him, but it's not the same feeling of discovering BIG FEELINGS for the first time. I know this is not the only person, and the only situation I could feel those feelings in. Somehow that makes it more down to earth and real. Maybe when you get more used to this feeling of being "held" in therapy it will be the same way for you. Maybe it's ok to just sit with those feelings for now?