Snowflake,

Your English is very good. I have a friend who is from Finland, and she says that English is stressed in the shools there pretty heavily.

I am glad to hear that you are going to a psychologist and that you will tell him or her about the cutting too. Once you start, it is really hard to stop doing it, so it will be a good thing that you have someone to help you. Cutting is not the real problem - it's just a symptom, and often a way to show other people or yourself how bad you feel. I think it has a lot to do with not being heard and not having your emotional needs met otherwise. Then it can just get to be a habit, and how you deal with things. Of course it doesn't actually make the problems go away, but it might make you feel better for the moment.

I know what you mean about wanting to stop but not wanting to stop. Most of the time I don't really want to stop, and I don't want my scars to fade, but I know that I have to. It keeps getting worse. I haven't done it for about 3 weeks now I think.

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>