Hi everyone,
I've been posting mostly in the psychotherapy forum, but have visited here from time to time, because I suspected I was BP. I especially suspected I was BP because I rode quite the wave of mania for about a week or so recently and only crashed down to earth after seeing a pdoc for the 1st time and starting a med. It was pretty clear to me for the 1st time that I was manic.....because I always thought I was mainly a depressive who felt sort of happy at times. And actually, though I was sort of scared by how exalted I felt, I thought, why is this so bad, exactly.....feeling like there is no gravity holding me down is better than feeling like gravity is 10x more than usual!
Now, I have seen a pdoc, a couple days ago and have indeed been diagnosed BP. Not BP2 as I thought, but BP1.....and borderline traits as well. Even though I certainly expected the BP diagnosis, and am not surprised really at the borderline, this is still somehow painful to take in, getting an official diagnosis (not to mention the pdoc made various deeply blunt, harsh comments that cut like hot, sharp swords ). So I am working on coming to terms with this and will probably be dropping in more now to visit here!