So I just got back from seeing my T. She told me today that I am the healthiest person in my family. Apparently she has known this for years but didn't think that I was in the right place where I would be able to handle hearing that. I was floored. I asked her then if I am the healthiest person in my family then why am I the only one in my family that sees a psychiatrist and am the only one that has been hospitalized (several times) She said it was because I am trying to fight the dysfunction of my family and that sometimes it makes me sick. She said that now that she has told me this that I need to start grieving about the fact that I am the healthiest person in my family otherwise I won't be able to grow emotionally or develop any autonomy (part of my developmental stages that I am stuck on) until I do this. YUCK! She said that it won't be easy and it will suck and it will feel gross and yucky but she will be there for me the whole time to help me through it. Not looking forward to it at all!! Then at the end she offered me some cookies but I refused and told her that I don't feel well. Her reply "Well how could you with everything that I just told you!?" Thanks T. Has anyone else ever grieved anything like this before? Any advice??
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