The pDoc insulted you? what on earth for? I mean my old D.O had called me out on a few of my insecurities when i thought they were delusions, and that cut like knifes in my heart. But that was after several sessions. My apologies if it seems nosey; i certainly do not wish to pry. But what did they say that upset you so?

To tell you the truth, I was suspected BP since i was a teen, but no clear diagnosis until about 3 months ago, and a not-so-clear diagnosis about 3 before that. The stigma I placed on my self still lingers, and it takes time to fully accept the diagnosis for what it is on the surface: a label. Nothing more, and nothing else. It's a label used by Psychiatrists to put clear definitions on clusters of symptoms related to specific defined mental disorders. I truly hope you come to a healthy and accepting perception of your self when you come to terms with the DX.

This is a life time journey. One that you don't have to take alone. Many people will always be at your side helping you through the many stages of episodes. Bipolar spectrum disorder takes form in many unique ways for people, and not everyone's experience is the same.

Welcome to the club.