All of you are a perfect example of why I feel at ease enough to post my feelings and thoughts and not feel like I am alone. Thank you for that.

I have posted in that forum a few times. Because I needed to get it out. I needed to express myself, confront my past and see actually see it. If that makes sense. Before coming here, I rarely, if ever, talked about my past and the abuse that I suffered. I kept in in, determined to never let it out. I thought I could make it go away .

I guess the problem I have is actually posting in that forum and expecting others to support me and show me that I am not alone, when in turn, I can not do the same. I feel like, well, Please help me, but I cant help you. , ya know?

But I also know, that I can do only what I can do and what is best for me. What is healthy for me and I know I can not push myself beyond my limits.

As Myself said above, I do often push myself to go into forums I dont usually go into to make myself face what I am afraid of, but often feel like a failure when I can not handle it .

I appreciate the support you have shown me here, all of you are such special people. Thank you so much.


Huggles and love,


Jen