Thank you, lyib. I read the article. I have never heard of limerence before. Yes, it seems like that's another term for what I always called "addiction" to my Ts. I also had crushes on people from childhood on, that fall into the same category. My Ts always said it was because I didn't get my needs met as an infant/child. I still go from one T to another. Maybe there IS no cure for it but I hope there is.

It seems like when I'm in therapy, my T IS the only person I feel that way with. There isn't anyone else in RL like that. Only Ts. I think it's more a "mother" figure that gets turned into a romantic figure because when we're infants, our mother is like that for us. Her love is bliss, to paraphrase Judith Viorst's Necessary Losses again. Maybe limerence is bliss is Mommy's love. Maybe I need to stop trying to figure it out but my brain won't stop racing about it.