the older you get, the harder some things are to learn. like languages, for instance....a little child's brain is like a sponge, so elastic, so soaking in the learning, but get to my age, and it really does take a lot more conscious effort and is more of a struggle.
in this matter, this is like learning an emotional/social language we should have been learning when we were younger and it could have just been soaking in. but instead it's like we have to unlearn behaviors, emotional habits, too, along with learning new behaviors, habits, beliefs, emotional patterns....a whole new of being and it doesn't come easy.
I feel so discouraged if I look at the whole of what I have to do now, so I'm going to just find a smaller area to focus in on first, and go step by step....