I do have a dream. I want to be a pastry chef like Duff Goldman and own a cakery, but, everything seems so pointless now. I'm thinking deeply about how much bad there is in the world and how much it out-weighs the good. I'm a severe pessimist and it's hard for me too find any good when my cups always half empty. I would love to change my mindset and really understand the good but I can't by nature. And when I think about it, my dreams are so out of reach