I've got melatonin online (it's illegal technically in this country, they don't prescribe it, for some reason, to under fifties.) It worked wonderfully well, but it takes me the whole next day to be thinking straight. So I'm waiting till Friday night, since I have to be up early to get my son sorted for school. Of course, I'm technically up early
now...

Today I've just kept crying, when nobody's been looking, though I think folks might have noticed occasionally. I had to get a taxi to group today, and I can't describe how awful I felt. It's my first "group", and i just wish...

I feel at once like a failure, a pompous *****, a fraud... what am I doing there?

When I got back I just lay down on my side and covered my face with my arm until my son came home. I really don't know at times what's the point, and if I'll ever move again.