Thanks again for the support!
I decided about pdoc that he was right about some things and it hurt and ticked me off because they were right. Some things I can see he wasn't right about so much, and I don't have to take it all to heart as gospel truth. He was just blunt and a hard*** about most things. Direct is something I can handle, but direct with tact and a bit of gentleness would be nice....this was direct at knifepoint! Someone you've never seen in your life stripping you of your dignity and your (self)deceptions....hard to take. Grrrr!
And he's right, some important things I realize I don't have the insight about....like, for instance, I really had no clue how severely my mood shifted upward at times until this current mania. And then I only saw it because I had had a pronounced manic reaction to Lexapro last month....