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Old Jan 05, 2006, 06:16 PM
Anonymous29319
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Depends on which counselor I am talking about. I have had 19 therapy professionals. Some still don't know. Others saw the scars in the summer so I did not have to tell. Some read it in my files so again they didn't need me to tell them. I don't think I out right sat in front of my therapy professional and said I've been known to do it. Those that didn't get it from my medical and mental health files and didn't see past scars got the full effect when I burst into thier office dripping blood and not remembering how and with what it happened.

The reactions from the file readers and the seeing past scars was them having me sign a contract not to do anything without talking to them first.

If what they saw was fresh within 24 hour time period I was involuntarily taken to the ER for psych assessment for suicide (which is why I DON"T discuss my cutting or show evidence of cutting with my therapists)

My present therapist knows I cut from my files and had me sign something that said I would not hurt myself or others during therapy sessions.

and she also knows she will not see any fresh within the 24 hour commitment time period evidence of my cutting nor will I tell her during that 24 hour commitment time period that I am cutting. She knows I am actively working on fighting it and how and how long its been since the last time.

My recent past therapist and my present therapist feel ok with the fact that I do it, not that they are promoting it, they would rather I didn't cut but they know I am doing my best and the time frame between cuttings each time gets longer (presently I have not cut in 9 months) which means I am getting stronger at fighting it and I am actively using appropiate coping tools to do so.