I talked with my T today, and she says that there is always a reason behind why we SI... so here's the question to you all.. Do you feel like there is a reason behind what you do for SI?

I'm not sure what my reason is, but I do want it to go away, but I'm scared to dig into the reason. Then I feel like I loose control, and things happen... Fear is stopping me from getting better... Fear...

So what's your reason? I would like to know other people's reasons to find the right words for what ever reason I make up, that I seem not to know what words to use.