Why the secrecy with the T? If we go to our T to help us, don't we need to tell all in order to find healing? Although I will feel uncomfortable if my T sees my posts right now, we haven't been working together long so I haven't had time to get to everything. It would actually save me time and money if she would come on the forum and read my stuff - then I wouldn't have to fill in so many things that there is no time in session to cover.

So, if you're in therapy, why do you hold back? Have you decided definitively that there are some things you won't tell T or are you just waiting to get the courage?

I know for me there's a huge fear but I am doing everything I can to get through that fear. I don't believe I will find my own healing until I'm as honest as possible. It's going to take a little time I've learned.

Funny thing is (and my T and I laugh about it now), when I had my 1st appt. with T, I read her a list of my goals and I truly truly believed I would see her about 3x at the most. Hilarious, huh?