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Thank you sun for yet another amazing picture. They always make me want to be there and for the time I spend looking I almost feel like I am.
Thank you to for the update on sunset. I am glad you are benefiting from your exchanges. I wish her well and hope to see her here again if and when she is drawn back.
I had the most amazing sit last night in my chair. It actually went on for about 2 hours and I still didn't feel ready to stop. After looking into the Mandela I posted I went to another one labeled a chakra meditation.
Even though it had a lot of reds, a colour that can often trigger instant anxiety, felt none. Even though the music hit some very high pitched sounds there was none of the expected anxiety. I felt an auto-response to remove myself but within seconds I realize I didn't need to run.
The imagery was incredible. The shape shifting amazing. During the whole experience I was breathing very deeply both in and the out, inhaled every bit of breath that was possible and expelled every bit of breath that was left. In between times I sat in calm breathlessness before breathing in or out again. The intensity of the peace was kept growing and enclosing me as if in my mother's womb.
I closed my lap top and sat in the dark silence of my room. I was expecting it to be a time transitioning out. My breath became slow and relaxed. I have never been so relaxed ever nor has my breath been so soft and gentle.
After some more time had passed during which I entered into an even deeper place of peace I was suddenly startled by a sensation that my heart had actually stopped breathing. When I took a breath I heard from behind my left ear what sounded like my son's voice say very audibly "love you".
When I opened my eyes in the darkness I noticed that another half hour had passed. I thought it must be time to stop. I turned on the light to get ready for bed while maintaining mindlessness only to be drawn back again to sit in the silence.
This time I began to slowly, very softly in a flowing motion, barely touching my skin with the tips of only my fingernails, stroke over my face, my neck and along the edges of my ears. I felt pampered by the contact. The sensation drew me even further into the peacefulness. When I was done, I took a few deep breath to close the session.
I slowing moved into bed and after what felt like seconds I mindlessly drifted off to sleep.
Too be continued.... if you can bare to read another of my long minute by minute accounts.
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