I feel like im gonna snap, like im gonna have a melt down, and this is with 3 mg of xanax. I hate being home alone, im tired of crying, im tired of my ex husband driving me to insanity and I cant wait to see the pdoc tomorrow. I hate waking up in the morning dreading the day. IM tired of dr appts , i had 1 tues 1 wed that was a surgery to drain an absess, yea that was realllll pleasant, one today, and 3 tomorrow. on one hand im glad im out of the house but doing things like grocery shopping and landry is enuf to drive me crazy, just drives me to a really bad spot, I used to have the strength to deal with this, ive been at the bottom of the tunnel before and gotten myself out but never like this before, this depression is really debilitating, and now I find out I cant start my new job for atleast 2 more weeks, due to the shots I need ( hense all the dr appts) I just wish i could get my **** together and have a job that will support me and my daughter.So even though i got a job i got to find a second one because this one isnt going to pay the bills. I took it mainly to get out of the house and its better than nothing