So I went and she decided not to change meds. She thinks right now my personal situation is overshadowing the meds because the stress is so high. So, she doesn't want to switch around on meds since that could cause other issues I don't need right now. And she kept me on the Xanax for the heightened anxiety. But as you know, they don't do a whole lot of talking/listening. Just drug dealing.

She also thinks I need to do therapy, but I can't afford to do therapy for myself and for my son right now. And we had a really disappointing session yesterday with our new T for my son. I wanted to discuss with her and my husband how I don't feel like he is a support system right now. He is in need of a complete attitude change. And emotionally I just don't feel like I'm anyone's number one. I want to be someone's priority for even a few minutes! Might boost my self esteem. So, the saga continues. Just paying all these people and not going anywhere as of yet. I know it is a long process, but for as much money as it all costs, it needs to be faster! I need some solutions! Thanks for all the comments and caring. Coming here has really helped me when I don't feel like I have anywhere else to turn.