See? I even forgot to finish the stupid post.......... ANywayyzzzz ....... I get totally overwhelmed at any task that takes more then a little effort........ CLeaning my room is always the big, dreaded, event of hell............I mean, my room is such a mess that I cant believe I live in it............... it's depressing for me to just live with the fact that I am so damaged that I cant even simply clena my room ....... Geeezzzzzzzz..... what's the BIG deal............... i really hate this stupid illness or whatever it is ............... I know how you feel...... I think it makes it worse to beat up on yourself tha way I do .......... kinda like i'm oding right now? yeah. anyway, I just look at my room or my desk and I crawl back in the bed........... THat's how I handle everything and that is also why I'm always afraid that b 4 I know it I'll just be a babbling idiot on a street corner somewhere.................... I think it's pretty sad........ my friends dont want to hear me talk about this %#@&#! either....... THey've heard it so much that I have to PRETEND that my life is O.K. DOKAY ............ but it really isn't........ it really isn't