(((ABBY))) You are more than welcome to write here. Let me tell you good idea I was given... try not to make such large paragraphs... break them up it makes them easier to read.

You sound sooo depressed. And of course you don't feel important. I probably haven't read or remember all your post... but I wonder why you are going to India when you obviously don't want to. You are 18, can you decide other wise?

Anger is a basic component of depression. What became of your finding another T? You need someone to look in the eye and tell what's going on, and someone who can look back and help you. Best wishes in this... and no, don't feel bad for posting... all of the dark pit comments amaze us after we dig out a bit...

Please research anything I suggest before believing...