I'm sorry for the suffering that you both have experienced, and wish I could steal it away from you. It was inspiring though, SS to hear of your meditation experience. Gus, thank you so much for the music suggestion. I'll search around on youtube. I need to put together a collection of inspiring soothing music for my MP3 player. This music phenomenon drives me absolutely insane at times. The same song will repeat from waking in the morning until falling asleep, sometimes just a part or phrase. I can usually bump it out by thinking of another tune, but then that repeats endlessly. It started a few years ago. It's not psychosis. I don't know what caused it. It'll disappear for short periods now and then. It makes meditation nearly impossible. I really miss silence.