i think the bottom line is, I'm exhausted, burned out and anyone that gets in my way will be run over...... My tolerance has zeroed out.. My compassion is limited... Am tired of caring about how every one is doing. Is time to worry how I'm doing. Just I don't know how to take care of me. It has always been others first...Their feelings. Their wellbeing.. Now I wonder if I was born this way or I was beaten into compliance.......Guess it doesn't matter.. What matters is what I do with what I have left, now..............When depleted one hides, "is what I've done for many years" or wake up, face reality and move forward and don't look back............sounds good but can I really do it....... rolls eyes at self... think i am more angry at me for letting things get so out of hand