Hi,

Please I need to know that I am not the only one who has felt this way and behaved this way. I feel all alone and considering, I kicked my hus band out about 2 weeks ago(for a justified reason), now I feel alone and very financially scared. I have my son and my mother, but my mother is going through her own physical problems right now, as she was diagnosed with heart disease at the end of August.

1. I have been neglecting myself, alot of the time even a shower is an effort.

2) I stay in my bed most of the time. I have for a while.

3. I isolate myself, i think more so now since we had to move out of state last November, due to my soon to be ex husbands job loss.

4. I have been losing my appetite for a long time now(Irritable Bowel Syndrome), but for the past week in a half, when I eat, I have pain and run to the bathroom having diarrhea. So i basically have barely eaten.

5. The hopelessness and guilt has gotten so bad, i am having suicidal thoughts, but could never do it due to my christian beliefs.

6. I am having nightmares that relate to life events and i can't stay asleep 85% of the time more then 3 hours.

Please, am i the only one that has gone through any of this? I am on an anti-depressant and an anti-anxiety drug already. Any hope in me feels gone and i feel like a total failure. HELP! I'ts really bad. BTW, I signed myself up for state health insurance, in OK, if you have a child under 18 you can.

Thank you.