(((((((((Tree)))))))))))

I read every word. Thank you so so much for sharing this. I agree with your T, you are a very brave and strong person. You did a WONDERFUL job!!! Body memories around SA can be so very hard to process through. I feel angry that you were hurt in those ways. My heart goes out to you. But I feel joyful that you are doing so well in working for your healing and your health. You are doing so great!

"I'm sorry to be asking without giving right now." <--- Now THIS part I need to call you out on.

These two things - giving and receiving - have been linked by society in a way that causes a very big problem. Giving and love should not have anything to do with what the other person does. I ((and I know others here on PC)) give you our love and our time and our replies because they are a gift to YOU. They don't require any payment on your part. They do not require you to reply back to us.

When you reply to us, we accept it as a gift from you. We accept your compassion and friendship. We don't think you are expecting us to pay for it in some way.

Give and Receive are a NATURAL outcome of a healthy relationship. That is VERY different than an expectation.

We care deeply for you and we celebrate your progress WITH you :-)