I just got out of in patient and I'm STILL having problems...
All the abuse in my past makes me cut. I can't take it out any other way then cut and thinking about suicide... I was doing a partial program and now they are readmitting me.
It's so annoying being inpatient because all I can think about is cutting and being suicidal... I get triggered and I have no way to take it out.
The place I'm being readmitted to has a trama program that gets filled up quickly but they're hoping that I get into it.
I just don't feel like I deserve the help. Specially when I have a hard time accepting it.
I'm sorry if this post was confusing... I've had a hard time staying grounded lately and I feel like I'm dissociating a lot.
I just can't do anything right.