No Desirae,

You are not a horrible grandaughter.

I know how much you loved your grandmother. She would want you to be focused on your children's happiness this Christmas. I know you still hold her in your heart. You are a good mother, just the fact you put up the tree for your children.

I think you are a remarkable young lady. Feel free to PM.

Your grandmother would want you to be happy.

Hugs,

Jane