After feeling pretty great for a few days I now feel horrible! I find myself noticing absolutely everything he says to me and does and keeping this running tally in my head. Like we studied together today, but he didn't play footsie with me under the table like he usually does. All that makes me think is "he doesn't like me anymore." It hurts so bad that when I come home I just start crying. I hate this so much, it is so hard to handle. I'm so scared that we are never going to be a couple. What if I'm just Ms. Right Now for him? Now he's at work and he usually texts me, but hasn't yet and it is driving me crazy. I'm not usually this dependent on someone. I don't get it. I don't show it when he's around, but sometimes I'm so anxious. What can I do? I thought I was getting better.

I know I sound crazy writing this. It is so not like me, I'm usually such a loner. I know I would be a great girlfriend. I'm usually very laid back and calm. I love doing new things and going places I have never been. I also love just hanging out and watching tv with a guy I like. I like going to the city and I like staying home. Who I am doing these things with is more important to me than anything else. I feel like I have this person that I can do these things with and if I lose that it will hurt so bad. I never realized I was so lonely before. And going back to that or seeing him, but not being with him scares me so much. I don't know if it is all in my head or not.