Wow, it sounds like a *lot* went on in that session. It sounds really tough- you have my sympathy. Do you and T have any clearly defined goals you can go back to? It sounds like she wants you to achieve a whole lot of things at once, and it might help if you made some goals and agreed together which ones to focus on, rather than her acting unilaterally?

Perhaps one important goal is to be able to recognise and name your feelings, for example? It is so hard if we didn't see others model this for us as children. I had to learn it, explicitly, as an adult. This is part of 'emotion regulation' in DBT, and there are some fab handouts, which list each emotion, and the situations in which you might feel it, how you might feel in your body, what your thoughts might be, what your action urges might be, how you might feel once the emotion is gone... It's basically detective work at first, starting with your action urge (e.g. to SI) and going through the sheets until you find an emotion that fits! But it gets easier, and it's such a helpful skill to have.

Hope you feel a bit better in the morning, and that your T replies soon