had a good session with new t today. still will take a few more to start making progress i think but at least i like him so far.

but other than that everything has been pretty bad. new med has really messed up my sleep. doc wanted me to take in the morning worried it would keep me awake, but it seemed to make me sleepy and i started back sleeping during the day again... no good. so i started at night and although it makes me sleepy it is also keeping me awake. so past few days have been a nightmare, no sleep at night, sleeping late in the morning. i see the doc again in another week so i'm going to see if i can fix my sleeping schedule and if now ask him to switch me.

i've also had a bad headache which might be because of the med too.

at first i was very nauseas from it but i was expecting that, it ended it not to bad and i think i'm over the nausea. but i still haven't been eating well the past few days, have had to force myself to eat again.

worst is just that i still feel stuck in the same place, no hope for the future, been home from work for over 3 months now, seriously think i won't be able to go back to work and seriously afraid that i may not be able to work at all. i can't go on floating like this forever struggling to find any way to get past this, money has been growing tighter and tighter.

and today i got a certified letter the back is starting forclosure proceedings.

if i lose my home i have no family to help out or take me in and no place to go. i've worked so very hard for my independance for so many years, both emotionally and working hard at jobs, and if i can lose it all in a matter of a few months what am i going to do?

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-- Dave
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