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Originally Posted by Squiggle328
She was very 'poker face' as usual. Did not bat an eye. She feels that I need to explore my feeling a little more. I am doing that in the other forum.
While some may think that was taking a risk to share that with her, I see it as being totally transparent with her. I want her to see the real me. All of me so that she can help me figure out what is wrong with me! Why do I think like do? What do I do the things I do?
I told her that I am not in therapy to pick and choose what I was willing to share and what I wasn't. If something comes up, I want to share it. No matter how humilitaing it may be. It is something I need to work through. She had been okay with everything I have shared with her so far. I don't think there is any topic that is off limits with her.
I did send her an email to give me some feedback from that session. I know we talked, but I cannot remember what she said. Hoping to hear back from her tomorrow.
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You are right Squiggle.....and your willingness to be so unsparingly transparent is an inspiration!
I have tried, really I have to be transparent and honest too, and not withhold, but yet that withholding because of fear, fear to be that vulnerable, is one thing I have such a huge issue with......I know I need to be transparent and vulnerable, and I have made strides toward that, and yet, and yet.....I have still been protecting the deep deep parts of me from her. But how can they get the help and healing they need unless I show them too....I'm getting there, bit by bit.
There are some things I will be telling my T too.....though I don't know that I can show her that thread (or if she would seriously want to read the whole d * * * thing!) but there are some excerpts from other threads I'm going to show her....