Upsides? I suppose she loves me. Says she does anyway. But I have been wondering more lately if it is just a sense of loyalty because I was there for her through all the surgeries and hospitals stays over the last few years. I try to talk to her about all of this, but never successfully.

I just get the feeling she would rather be online with her friends than with me. And I don't know that staying in the relationship with her is viable without changes. But at the same time, I have a strong sense of responsibility. If I left I fear she would lose the house. It is in both our names, but I am ready to walk away from that property. Honestly, if it wasn't for the house I would have walked away a couple years ago.