I just had a two month hypomania very much like you described it. I would claim to anyone that it was different, and it was different. I think I always doubted that it wouldn't end in tears. I did not want to believe it. I too want to be happy !! I want to be genuinely happy, not powered by some screwed up brain chemicals. I know how frustrating it gets. It gets to the point where you start doubting real good feelings. At least I do. I can't remember being really happy when it wasn't a mood swing. That is kind of depressing.

The backlash, that I secretly feared, came and my mood crashed. I was close to suicidal on Wednesday and my mood hit zero on the scale. I took a sleeping med from the GP and I was back up there. I have been bouncing up and down the mood scale ever since. Who knows where it will settle. I think I do need a meds adjustment but that won't happen in a hurry.

I hope this helps you feel less alone. Send a message any time.

Clive x