I think it's a fine balance between being properly medicated and being over medicated. I was diagnosed while in-patient and was in a very bad place, so my pdoc was right to have me on all my meds I was on. I was on them for almost 3 years and then it got to the point that I was tired of alternating between being depressed and flat. I spoke to my pdoc about it and had my meds changed, but I wish I had spoken up sooner.

The hypomania isn't true happiness (though it certainly feels like that when I'm in that episode). I don't like the hypomania because its an indication that I'm not well and I always have the crash after it. I also find it's off putting to others especially at work.

Perhaps speaking to your p-nurse again will help. Is there other things that you do that bring you joy? I know you mentioned exercise. That really helps me and I do it regularly even when I'm depressed and/or don't feel like it.