Thank you Myzen for your reply.....

and YES while I know this is totally my husbands problem and he alone must change / fix it (he has just recently owned & admitted it), - it is still a problem that cannot go without effecting the other spouse.
Ones marriage & love may never be the same again after sexual addiction has touched it.... not to mention the mind and emotions of the wounded spouse.

I do so hate how his addiction has effected, hurt, wounded and controls me now - I am a prisoner within my own house (and mind). The images I cannot escape.... they haunt me at every turn.

Does 20 years of marriage: of faithfulness and love not account for any thing to a man these days. And how can I, the mother of three and lady of almost 40 years compete with such young images that he allows his eyes to enjoy and his mind to have?

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LoVe,
Rhapsody -