My family never understood me either, never even tried. I was always ridiculed or snubbed if I ever tried to talk about "feelings".

You're definitely not alone, that's for sure.

Have you thought about talking with your doctor? There's no reason for you to continue suffering if you can get some help. I wouldn't want to jump into medication if it's not needed, but if it is it can make a HUGE difference in your life. Your doctor should be able to help you determine what might work best for you.