Thank you all for your responses!! It means a great deal to have people who have been threw or are going through the same things. Not that I would wish this on anyone.

Well physcologists perscribed LEXAPRO and ATIVAN.. never taken lexapro,, scared of allergic reactions( one of my many fears )

Its like I wake up and focus all day,,, waiting for a attack of vertigo.. I keep trying to tell myself that docs said nothing to worry about,, "you are HEALTHY" why can't I just accept that and live happy?? why does everyday have to be a struggle, I am in constant anquish and mentally, physically and emotionally I am a wreck! All because I just don't feel healthy. How can a brain deceive you so much.. to the point of literally controlling your life!! I hate this so much and just wish there was a MAJIC BUTTON