it got to be time that T said she would be free, and I couldn't think why I had called her, or what I would say. So I texted, thanked her for her message and for calling, and said I don't have anything to say right now, so I will see her on Monday. She wrote back and said "k. call if you want or need to."

I feel lame for not connecting to her when I finally have the chance, but I'm just really blah right now and don't know what I would say, and I think that would be frustrating to her to have me call for no real reason. Of course now I'm sad that I didn't call, but still can't think of anything to say, so here I sit.