I miss my T. I haven't seen her for a couple of weeks because of work craziness (job, no job, job, not as many hours as told.) Ugh.

I have been fine so far and after the first week of not being able to see T. But now I'm seeing her again next Tuesday and I am starting to really really miss her.

Beyond that, I told my T that I could see her because I had gotten a new job. However, the job was supposed to be 24 hrs a week that would provide me with enough hours to pay for T, pay for meds, and cover the increasing cost of gas and food. It seemed like a great job because I would have been able to keep it through the end of my schooling. However, now it is only going to be 12 hours a week. That is not enough to cover T and meds and food and gas. So I have stopped taking my meds.

I'm afraid to go back to see T next week and say that I can only afford to come three of the four weeks in the month. Especially when I told her I had a new job and everything was good when I talked to her on the phone. Ugh. There is too much stress in my life.