(((((Sosasap))))))) I can relate. I've had depression since childhood. I was one of those very serious kids. I'd get ignored at the dinner table, run off crying, and my parents and brother would say, "There goes Sarah Heartburn" (play on Sarah Burnhart, a melodramatic actress from the silent film era). Not too sensitive. But, my family was the source of the problem. It made it especially confusing because there was love in other times, in other ways. It can mess with one's sense of what's real, what's legitimate, in one's perceptions and feelings. Best wishes to you.