yeah, i feel that way as well. i went for months not uttering one word of my troubles and all it did was numb me out. i stopped feeling sad but i stopped feeling happy and at night i'd end up crying for nothing.

i'm feeling better today, though i haven't been able to talk to my friend. he did apologize a few hours later, and i told him it was fine (though of course it wasn't). then i told him i didn't know what else to say and he said there wasn't anything else and (i might've taken it the wrong way) i viewed it as an indirect way of saying we weren't friends anymore.

i haven't the faintest idea how to go about talking to him again. part of me doesn't want to, because i don't really want someone around who doesn't care about me, but part of me doesn't want to end a good friendship over one disagreement.. this is really the first time i've ever argued with him since we met 2 years ago.