wow this sounds so hard but do you think you could go and see your T at least one more time to at least say how you feel and see what was going through his mind.i care about you and wouldn't want to see anything happen to you at all.maybe his concern was medical to make sure you were OK with the amount of meds you took.maybe you needed to be monitored to make sure you didn't have any bad affects.i am glad you are ok but sorry you are in so much pain.i know trust is a hard thing believe me.but maybe git it one more try