So Wednesday was a really difficult session and after running into my worst nightmare things exploded inside...pretty well contained it on the outside. I scheduled an extra appointment for this monday and now that I dont ALWAYS feel so raw...I kinda dont want to go. Im afraid I will leave feeling so raw again but I know I should go in and talk to her. I gotta stop avoiding feeling and face and that is the safe place to do it without judgement or criticism. Ugh...its tough but I gotta do it. It doesnt mean I gotta look forward to it.