I wonder what 'crazy' is. I feel that way sometimes too - like my emotions are so bursting from my insides that if they don't come out I will die. Trying to behave normally and act calm and serene can be a challenge. I called my T today and left a message that I don't want to ever see her again. Too hard. But in the message I also said that I would be there next session. Only thing saving me now is intense physical exercise.